gonna fail

gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail gonna fail calc...

struggle

Lincoln: "I came in here as a man. Lord, make me leave this place as a man."
Me: "I came into this as a friend. Lord, make me leave this as a friend."

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There have been good days.
There have been great days.
But since then, there have never been better days.
How can one girl tear me apart like this?

GEORGE MASON!!!

wow.....the cinderella team of the year: GEORGE MASON UNIVERSITY Patriots!!!
I mean...#11 seed going to the Final Four?! WHAT?! haha... here's how they got there:
beat Michigan State University 75-65
beat University of North Carolina 65-60
beat Wichita State University 63-55
and now, beat University of Conneticut 86-84
WOW...that is something crazy. They are my pick for the NCAA championship. I don't care if they lose because they should've lost 4 games already. I don't care if I'm wrong because they beat the odds 4 times already. They have a swagger that will forever be remembered for NCAA Basketball in 2006.
Skinn, Butler, Campbell, Thomas, Lewis

A year has passed...

Well, it's been a long year, and so many different things have passed......both the good and the bad, the rough and the easy, the most heartfelt and the coldest words.......it's been a wild ride this past year, and life just goes on. Just gotta keep moving on...no turning back..

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And I'm so sick of love songs, so tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs, so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
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Yea...so sick...but doesnt matter...gotta move on. I'll never forget.
One down...many more to go? Sigh...

Thank you for everything you could imagine.
Thank you for the things no one will care about.
Thank you for being just the way you are...

I HATE CSC!!!!!

i hate compsci....stupid assignment!!! argh....stupid prof engels doesnt teach us the syntax of C++....and now im stuck trying to figure everything out.....man....i hate compsci...why does it hav to be so hard and frustrating? and to make matters worse...i've spent over 10 hrs on this assignment already...got prolly 5% done? man....and this assignment is only 4% of the overall grade....mite as well just tank it, rite???????
stupid csc
stupid compsci
stupid assignment

Jason McElwain

Autistic hoops star going Hollywood
17-year-old McElwain delivered stunning performance in first game

The Associated Press
Updated: 5:52 p.m. ET March 2, 2006


GREECE, N.Y. - Alone in the gym after practice, Jason McElwain went through his elaborate pregame ritual.

The 17-year-old senior, manager of the Greece Athena High School basketball team, drained a 3-pointer, a double-pump layup and a free throw, kissed the back of his ring finger at center court and sped off to the dressing room to exhort and amuse his teammates.

“You’ve gotta give it everything you got!” McElwain sang in rap verse. “The winner goes home all happy/The loser goes home and says/‘Mommy we lost the game, wah wah wah!”’

McElwain, who is autistic, was back in his role as an all-around motivator on the eve of a sectional semifinal game Tuesday night — handing out water bottles, dispensing tips, helping run drills. Two weeks earlier, he suited up for a game and delivered a jaw-dropping performance.

His play drew national attention, and a flood of calls from Hollywood. His parents have received inquiries from about 25 production companies ranging from The Walt Disney Co. and Warner Bros. to independent documentary filmmakers.

“I don’t know what I’m walking into,” McElwain said.

In his team’s final home game of the season, McElwain entered with four minutes to go. It was his first and only appearance for the Athena varsity team in this Rochester suburb. The 5-foot-6 manager hit six 3-point shots and a 2-pointer and was carried off the court on his teammates’ shoulders.

His triumph was captured on a student video that made the rounds of the television networks. The school was besieged with calls and e-mails from parents of children who have autism, a little-understood developmental disorder.

“We have an obligation as a society to find a way to include people with different abilities,” said the school’s athletic director, Randolph Hutto, whose 12-year-old son, Joshua, is autistic. “This, hopefully, will help open doors for some people, or open some eyes.”

McElwain, who didn’t begin talking until he was 5, still lacks social skills but has learned to cope well in his teens, said his special-education teacher, Diane Maddock.

“He might talk a little loud, laugh a little too long or not be able the read the body language or even the tone of voice of a person, but it’s not a big difficulty,” Maddock said. “If you call him on it, he will acknowledge it, say ’OK, you’re right, I shouldn’t have said that or laughed when I laughed.”’

“This couldn’t happen to a nicer kid,” she added.

Considered too small to make the junior varsity, McElwain signed on as manager, then took up the same role with the varsity to stay near the sport he loves. Amazed at his dedication, coach Jim Johnson had him suit up for the home finale. There was no guarantee he would play — Athena was battling for a division title — but he got in when the Trojans opened a large lead.

“It was like a big old bucket and I was just hitting them like they were free throws,” McElwain said. “I just felt relaxed.”

The coach couldn’t believe what he was seeing.

“He’s been my right-hand man, he’s there every day and just getting him the opportunity to suit up was emotional enough for me,” he said. “For him to come in and seize the moment like he did was certainly more than I ever expected. I was an emotional wreck.”

Because he played in just one regular-season game, McElwain was ineligible for sectional play. But he’s not bothered.

“I just want to win as a team, not individually,” he said.

What’s more, he prides himself on having a lot of friends.

“I’m not really that different,” he said. “I don’t really care about this autistic situation, really. It’s just the way I am. The advice I’d give to autistic people is just keep working, just keep dreaming, you’ll get your chance and you’ll do it.”

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Goodbye My Lover

They say to love is to let go. You never really understand that until you experience it. Well, I guess things have been like this for a while. It almost seems like this was meant to be. Well, maybe it is meant to be. Letting go is hard. Especially when it means having your hopes and dreams to be changed. When you have to change your thoughts and the way your mind "works". When you have to just forget. The past isn't something easy to forget. It's hard to ignore something that has impacted you. But what can you do? You can't change the past. Let the things out of your control be out of your control. Alot of times, things linger in your heart, giving you instances of hope, when what it really is is just distractions of the heart. You can never have all the answers in life, and I truly believe this is one of them. God works in strange ways. You can be sure of every single thing in your life, but it can easily turn out exactly opposite because of God's plan. You can never rely on anything in this world. It's all for Him. Well, I guess it's time to officially say: Goodbye My Lover. I let it all go. I let it all be in God's care. No matter how hard this is, I give it all away. Every single thing of the past, and the present. Goodbye My Lover.

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