Rough week

It's been a pretty rough week this week..maybe it's a sign that I need to push even harder? I actually don't know what to do really...I'm kinda just letting it all sink in. So the exam I did on Tuesday was harder than I thought. It's not like I didn't start studying early...I started studying for this exam last week, so I had a good 5 to 6 days of studying, but I think I just didn't review enough the day before. I don't know. Maybe it was a brain cramp. Either way, I just have a bad feeling about how I did on that test. Then today, I hear the news that both of my Grad School scholarship applications did not go through. That was the worst because I spent so much time and effort on them and they both ended up being a big waste of time. Pretty demoralizing feeling right now, but what can you do? Sigh, I feel rotten, but I just gotta motor on and continue to trust in God. At least the Raptors won their season opener! Jermaine O'Neal! So GOOOOOD! And yes, I know, the Rays lost. I ended up with a 1-6 record for the MLB playoff picks this year. Definitely the worst I've ever had.

Worst to first!

Baseball Post!

OK, so my picks have been terrible this playoffs, but here's one last pick, hopefully to redeem all of my previous poor picks!
Tampa Bay Rays > Philadelphia Phillies in 6
OK, the Rays proved me wrong, and there's no way I'm picking against them this time. They're the Team of Destiny this year, and they have all the firepower needed to win. Worst to First!

Crave to grow

I had another one of those heart-tugging moments today at service! Pretty interesting topic Pastor Tim brought up in his sermon. Am I really craving to grow spiritually? I often wonder if I'm doing enough to allow myself the opportunity to grow. Sometimes I feel I'm not spending enough time praying and doing devos. Either way, it was a great reminder to really focus on God and just come to Him because He satisfies all of my needs. The only problem I have with this is, do I only do this (craving to grow) when I REALLY REALLY REALLY need God's help? I should be going to Him whether in good or bad times....Even during the good and fun times in life, I feel like I can still grow spiritually from it, whether it'd be learning how to count blessings and be humble, or just learning how to be thankful for not having to experience the bad. I just need to offer all my life to God...craving for spiritually growth every second of my life.

"Hungry, I come to You for I know, You satisfy"
"I'm falling on my knees, offering all of me..."
(Lyrics from "Hungry" by Kathryn Scott)

Come Home (more thoughts)

Really funny moment I had yesterday on my way back home on the bus! I was listening to OneRepublic again (as always!) and the song was "Come Home". For some reason I just started listening to the lyrics carefully and thought about the words, and a crazy idea came to my head. "What if Jesus spoke these lyrics?" And so I listened to the song again and realized that it actually makes a lot of sense! I can clearly see Jesus (a young Jesus, not old enough for ministry yet, but old enough to be a young adult, and also being able to fully experience human feelings) singing this song to the people of this world (and also to God!) as He knows that the world is a mess, but yet He still tries to see the good out of it. I wonder if Ryan Tedder wrote this song in that perspective. Either way, an amazing song with amazing lyrics has given me a different perspective in life. Maybe even Jesus was "dreaming out loud"...

Wow...I keep switching from spiritual talk to baseball talk...

I just realize how weird it must be reading my blog if you are only interested in one of the two (spiritual stuff, baseball stuff)! But TOO BAD, both are integral parts of me.

Today's blog post will be about baseball! hahaha...so here are my 2nd round picks:
Red Sox > Rays in 7: Yes, I said I wouldn't pick against the Rays anymore, but you gotta look at Boston. They are the defending champs. They have depth at pitching and defense. They have clutch hitters who are experienced. They're just too mean for the Rays. But if the Rays do surprise me again and win, I will have no doubts in picking them to win the WS.
Dodgers > Phillies in 6: It's the Manny factor....and their strong starting pitching. But this time it's different because Phillies got lefty smashers in Howard /Utley/Rollins/etc. Anyway, I don't believe the Phillies pitching is good enough to win more then 2 games. LA's on a roll right now with their top of the order batting like crazy, and they've got Broxton who's as scary as hell....scary good!

So yup, I'm seeing Manny vs. Red Sox in the WS! This will be very interesting...haha

Come Home

So the latest song that's been stuck in my head is "Come Home" by OneRepublic. Well, this song has been stuck in my head for a while now, but anyway, one line in that song caught my eye...

"They're in their own place trying to make it right"

That got me thinking...are we trying to make everything right while just staying at our own place...are we trying to do everything with our own ability? A lot of times we just think we can do it all, but no matter how good you are, you'll end up crashing and burning (oh man, Savage Garden "Crash and Burn"...haha). It's a futile way of living life, so why are so many people doing this? Maybe this applies to me as well. I feel like I've been trying to do everything with my own power, and at the same time, I've been indirectly slowly pushing God away. It's time to ask God for His directions instead of trying to figure out my own way in life. Maybe you need to reconsider how your directions have been lately. Have you been driving solo, ignoring God?

MLB playoff picks getting owned...

Anyway, just watched the Dodgers sweep the Cubs...which means 3 out of my 4 MLB picks are wrong (or soon to be wrong). Never should've underestimated the Rays nor the defending champs Red Sox... I don't even know what to say about the frickin Cubs.

I'm beginning to see a possible Red Sox vs. Dodgers World Series...and that would be an AMAZING WS!!!! Manny versus his old team? Gonna be so crazy! But ya....I don't know if I can pick against the Rays...they're playing so good and a lot of people (including me) still underestimate them...

So as of now, I see Dodgers vs. Phillies and Rays vs. Red Sox....and then Dodgers vs. Red Sox. More analysis/picks when Divisional Series are done.