loser day...

hav u ever had a day where everything u do seems to somehow make u look like a loser?... well... that was today. sigh... i guess alot of stuff went thru my mind today... stuff like how lazy i am and how much more i could do if i actually put effort and the initiative to do it... and how i suck at basketball (man...i sucked at church tonite...it was pathetic)... and mayb how stupid i really am (literally)...man, my marks suck... they could hav beeen so much better if i actually tried my hardest... and seriously, my life reflects how stupid i am and how i am such a loser.... even my initials scream The Loser... sigh... this sux... i bet i'll never hav the guts to tell THE GIRL that i like her cuz im such a loser... people keep telling me to go and tell b4 its too late, but the thought of rejection and negativity always overtake my mind... this kinda reminds me of how stupid i was in grade seven, when i had such low self-esteem when i didnt believe i could do anything... now i believe i can do stuff, but i cant seem to find the effort to actually do it to the fullest with a positive outcome... man, i hav so much to improve on... i kinda wish i was more outgoing and stronger everthing i do...

newayz...a positive did happen today... i had the chance to watch the most entertaining game of euro 2004 thus far between england and portugal... super game with the extra time and penalty kicks... haha... "Ricardo saves...Ricardo scores!!!"... and portugal goes to the semis.... beckham (missing penalty kick AGAIN) is such a loser... kinda like me?