The worst feeling I've ever felt so far in my life

Saying goodbye to a loved one is never easy. Sending her off on a plane to halfway around the world is hard. Sending her off while not knowing when you will see her again is really hard. Doing all of the above while having to hold back tears as they stream down your face while tears are streaming down hers is probably one of the saddest and worst feelings you can ever imagine.

I sent my girlfriend off on a plane to Hong Kong this morning. She's going there for internship and job in a field she really enjoys. I'm really happy that she's going there because God has told her to go there. The sad part is to stand behind the stripe and watch her walk away from you as you both are crying, while not knowing when the next time you'll see each other. I don't think I've ever felt something that sad in my life, and that was probably the worst feeling I've ever had in my life so far. I understand that it's something in God's hands and He has everything in control, but sometimes, the emotions just come and you just can't help but release them in tears. I tried my best to hold back, but I knew the mini crying moments I had this week was a sign that there was no way I could hold back my tears during the final hug.

Even though it'll only be one month officially as of tomorrow, I believe that this is really a big test of faith for the both of us as we continue our relationship. It's a test to see if we can truly trust God to carry us through even though we will be halfway around the world from each other. It's a test to see if we can both continue to spur each other to grow spiritually even with the distance separating us. It's a test to show if we can really be something more in the future. I believe in all of that, and with God providing us strength, comfort, peace, and direction, I know we can pull through. These next few weeks will be really hard, and I know I'll cry again, but I also know that through all these upcoming experiences, we will grow stronger together and in God.

Didomi Summer Camp 2009

I was too caught up with something last night (see post below), but I felt that I need to post a short blurb about the experience at Didomi Summer Camp this past weekend. It was an amazing experience to go to camp as a counsellor and I feel God is really preparing me a great opportunity to serve by being in Didomi. I really hope I can just do my best and help these kids grow closer to God. Even though it is sad to see Chris and Gabe leave, I know Didomi will still be strong with the current counsellors and these amazing kids who have shown great potential to be strong Christian leaders.

An Unexpected Surprise

Not sure if "shocked" is the right word, but I was definitely surprised by the news I heard tonight. I'm not gonna go into details on this blog, but for those who care out there, I would appreciate if you pray that we can make it work. It'll be a tough few months/years, but I trust in God, and I believe things will work out in the end. I just need to overcome my constant worrying and focus on what God has in store for me.

4 Types of Friends

I just finished a book called "When Men Think Private Thoughts", and it basically talked a lot about the various things men usually worry and think about. One interesting thought that the author (Gordon MacDonald) wrote about was about the four types of friends that men should have. He was inspired by these four types of friends when he went on a skiing trip in Colorado. Here are the four types:
"Ambassadors" - one who simply wants to enjoy the ride with you
"Lift Attendants" - one who wants to maximize your experience by helping and serving
"Ski Instructors" - one who's there to make sure you're growing and learning
"Ski Patrol Members" - one who holds you accountable to keep your commitments and your purposes but who's also there when you're helpless and broken

So, do you have all four types of friends in your life?

Amazing!

So after a crazy exciting softball game, I went to eat desserts with high school friends. Afterward, I dropped by her house and we spent a long time chatting and talking about her interview. I'm not gonna go into details, but I just have to say that it's so amazing to be with her and I feel like God has something really special for us. She's so amazing! =) I'm just so thankful.

New Stage in Life

So I'm not single anymore. Yes, I finally asked her to be my girlfriend after much prayer and advice seeking from friends and family. I pray that God will continue to bless me and teach me how to become a better person in order to treat her well and to honour God in everything I do.

I decided that Canada Day was the day to ask the question so that the moment would be memorable! We went to Woodbine Beach at 5:41am to watch the sunrise and then I asked her the special question. =) Later, we spent the day walking at the park and watching a movie at home before heading off to an MTC potluck event to celebrate a holiday with fellow church brothers and sisters. All in all, a wonderful day, thanks to God for allowing such beautiful weather and keeping us safe throughout the day.

I pray that God will continue to bless me and her in our relationship, if it is even possible to bless even more than what He has given us already. Here's to more wonderful life events as we both grow closer to God.