The worst feeling I've ever felt so far in my life

Saying goodbye to a loved one is never easy. Sending her off on a plane to halfway around the world is hard. Sending her off while not knowing when you will see her again is really hard. Doing all of the above while having to hold back tears as they stream down your face while tears are streaming down hers is probably one of the saddest and worst feelings you can ever imagine.

I sent my girlfriend off on a plane to Hong Kong this morning. She's going there for internship and job in a field she really enjoys. I'm really happy that she's going there because God has told her to go there. The sad part is to stand behind the stripe and watch her walk away from you as you both are crying, while not knowing when the next time you'll see each other. I don't think I've ever felt something that sad in my life, and that was probably the worst feeling I've ever had in my life so far. I understand that it's something in God's hands and He has everything in control, but sometimes, the emotions just come and you just can't help but release them in tears. I tried my best to hold back, but I knew the mini crying moments I had this week was a sign that there was no way I could hold back my tears during the final hug.

Even though it'll only be one month officially as of tomorrow, I believe that this is really a big test of faith for the both of us as we continue our relationship. It's a test to see if we can truly trust God to carry us through even though we will be halfway around the world from each other. It's a test to see if we can both continue to spur each other to grow spiritually even with the distance separating us. It's a test to show if we can really be something more in the future. I believe in all of that, and with God providing us strength, comfort, peace, and direction, I know we can pull through. These next few weeks will be really hard, and I know I'll cry again, but I also know that through all these upcoming experiences, we will grow stronger together and in God.