And this is how God suddenly shook my thoughts today

***This is exactly what I've been feeling/thinking about for the past while...***

Those who have apostolic passion are planning to go, but willing to stay. You know you have it when you are deeply disappointed that God has not called you to leave your home and get out among those who have never heard His name. If you will not suffer and sacrifice for something, you are not passionate about it. If you say you will do anything for Jesus, but you don’t suffer for Him then you aren’t really passionate about Him and His purposes on earth.

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I've always wanted to know exactly why it still hasn't been God's plan yet for me to go "to the ends of the earth" (as they usually say). In my mind, it's always been because I'm not "fully prepared". I've always felt that I needed to have the "right mindset" before I step forward, and throughout the past few years, I've been waiting. Basically, I knew all along I needed the preparations, but I didn't really know what the preparations were, nor how to get prepared. I just knew I needed to prepare.

Now I know. And I was right all along. The funny thing is, I've always had the preparations planted in me. I just needed to groom it. This "apostolic passion" is clearly what I've always had...and now I see this as the springboard to finally having and feeling fully prepared to go.

APOSTOLIC PASSION.

"Apostolic Passion" is a deliberate, intentional choice to live for the worship of Jesus in the nations. It has to do with committed to the point of death to spreading His glory. It’s the quality of those who are on fire for Jesus, who dream of the whole earth being covered with the glory of the Lord.
4 things to develop:
1. Apostolic Abandonment - Abandon what I want in order to be filled with God's desires for Jesus to be worshipped in all nations.
2. Apostolic Focus - The ministry needs to be for GOD, not man.
3. Apostolic Prayer - Paul said that he prayed, "night and day with tears, without ceasing, with thankfulness in the spirit, constantly and boldly for godly sorrow against the evil one." Am I willing to do that?
4. Apostolic Decision-Making - Apostolic decision-making starts with a passion for God’s glory in the nation, then asks, "Where shall I serve you?" Most people do the opposite. They ask the where-and-when questions without a revelation of His glory in the nations. Is it any wonder they never hear God say, "Go!" They have not cultivated a passion for the passions of God. All kinds of lesser desires can be holding them captive. They might never realize it.



It's clear to me now. That's exactly what I've been trying to figure out. That's the "preparation" I've been wanting to pinpoint to do. I need to develop the apostolic passion that I already had. So now, I gotta go nurture this passion and maximize it in order to truly be ready to go.